Anyway, that's not what I want to write about right now. I should be sleeping, but as you can see, I'm not. Unless I'm blogging in my sleep, although I doubt that.
The reason why I'm not sleeping is because I just have too much on my mind. It's been one of those days, well weeks actually, were everything just seems to go wrong. I haven't been able to concentrate on my school work, so I'm already behind even though the term just started. I've been doing terribly with my violin practice recently. There are some family issues that are really troubling me at the moment. And I just can't stop thinking about the past and how one of my closest friends has become so distant from me. Growing up is just scaring me. Everyone keeps asking me what I'm going to do when I finish school and I'm absolutely clueless. I don't even know if I'll pass my exams! I won't if I keep being so slack with my studies.
But it's times like these, when everything is just bringing me down, looking like things will never work out, I need to remember who I am. I am a child of God. I am very precious in His sight. He's got everything under control and I just need to trust Him. Romans 8:28, "we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." God knows what He's doing with my life. I may not be able to see the good yet, I might not see it for a while, but I know that it will come if I continue to love God.
Some Bible verses I've been saying to myself quite frequently these past weeks are;
Psalms 61:2, "When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the Rock that is higher than I."
Psalms 73:21-26, "Thus my heart was grieved, and I was vexed in my mind. I was so foolish and ignorant; I was like a beast before You. Nevertheless I am continually with You; You hold me by my right hand. And afterward receive me to glory. Whom have I in Heaven but You? And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart fail; but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."
John 16:33, "I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world."
I won't share them all, but that's just a couple that have been helping me.
Also, while I was writing this Tenth Avenue North started playing. Then, this.
I know that I fail my Saviour everyday, but He always forgives me. This doesn't mean I've got a free card to just sin whenever I want, it means I'm trying to be better, I'm trying to stop acting on my feelings but however hard I try I will still fail. But He's helping me everyday to become more and morelike Jesus.
"Hardships often prepare ordinary people for an extraordinary destiny." C. S. Lewis.
I think that's enough rambling from me now. If I don't stop now I never will.
Goodnight to all the crazy people who bothered to read this.
Unicorn love to you all.